My previous blog has nothing to do with anyone I know nor based on any experiences you might assumed that I had. It was just an example I am illustrating on how a person can forgive and forget or not to forgive and forget. But even if you can really forget it, it haunts you, it certainly will for the rest of your life.

It’s apparent that I got back and amazingly alive from Haadyai. Strange feelings can confound you. Stranger still is how we depend almost completely on our feelings to perceive things and to understand better and more often to analyze what’s right and what’s not. The short trip has built it’s foundation in me in a way that it somehow undresses me to look at things in a more naked approach now. Melodramatic way of saying it I partially agree with you but give me some credit. I mean would you want to go back to a place that has robbed your sense of security or to a person that has murdered your happiness? It takes cibai courage to do so.

Thank you for instilling sunshine in me because I feel more relax, less uglier too. I apologize for complete silence these couple of days as I’ve been buzy and I am getting used to being the old me which is of course fanfuckingtastic. I was reading Chris’s blog and she stressed on how we have to make our own decision in life – no such a person or a visible thing should control or decide your choice in life. Damn jiwang topic she covered basically. I reckon we are dealing with endless harshness each day.

Her topic made me stumbled over my quandary – my quandary is not a fascination to all of you but it fascinates me how I actually dealt with it. I just let things be although the scenario is lying to you its not – that how I did it. To forget things, a person has a new toy. To move on, a person would play with the toy. I don’t know if I can do that - eh I must ask my non-straight homies. Because once you forget and move on, can you forgive and forget? To forgive and forget it is not your everyday routine. For an example if a person has been lying about his situation to you when you know that whatever he said is not true, can you forgive and forget? And that person has been lying to you would look deeply to the eyes of his new toy and can only truly see his new toy or can he somehow see you too – to see the lies he has been giving, to see that how selfish he can be, to see life in an exact way you see it?

I am leaving to Haadyai today. I still do not like the place and I am not going for a holiday. Will be back. Alive - I think.

Been buzy lately I think I need a rehab in a Candyshop. Which reminds me this 50 cent did his version of Candyshop :

I take you to the candyshop

I'll let you lick the lollypop

Go 'head girl don't you stop

Keep going till you hit the spot, woah

This is 50 cent's idea. And we know more than that.

This is my idea. Yes with a ribbon too. What a disappointment to 50 cent.

First day of Chinese New Year and I am working.

Milin, thank you for sending me the link on Atilia. That was really thoughtful. Till now, I still didnt get her Album. I went every week to check on it, everyweek this fella goes, "Out of stock, come back next week can?" Teruks. Then I will go, "Eh hello, you all see me every week asking the same thing and you ask me to come back ever week."

Oh Milin, now that my computer and internet connection is working fine, guess what - I can only see Atilia on YouTube but it won't produce any sound as I just found out my speakers ain't working. Even if I can read her lips so what, tidak bernaluri. I swear the screen will be next.

Is February a Fab month?

I apologized for not posting up any entries lately as things have been in a slight disorder and well of course, my computer needs to be fixed. The computer can’t be really blamed as her owner is just as distraught as her system. Si?

We flipped our calendar to the month of February and to those that missed their resolutions can secretly start over this Chinese New Year. New Year or not we constantly learn new things, stumble awkwardly and achieve successfully with just a blink of an eye. For an example, I’ve come across this:

Predictable things occurred in a wrong time and as human as we all are, we grow too slow to accept it even though as mentioned it is already expected – another thing your elders didn’t teach and God didn’t sprinkle that to your dreams at night on how to use your strategy. Por fah vor – that applies to everything I know!

Max, I hope I am right in whatever I said to you. Dear dumb blog, I kinda told Max I can read men’s balls better than their brains (I think this is just a random joke and has nothing to do with what I actually said to her). But por que no – I can be an exotic fortune teller and join Malaysian Idol to exhibit my talent.

That aside, I haven’t been drinking my usual ah pek coffee due to you-don’t-want-to-know reasons, I switch to another caffeine. Tea. People, I don’t think tea would be my cup of tea. It’s like when I close my eyes and sip on it, I can see carnage. *Nodding my head* Yes, that horrid. However, two thumbs up for Starbucks as this cute barista with her Starbucks accent did a good job from upselling my favourite Classic Caffe Latte to their newcomer Rooibos Tea Latte earlier this morning. Be the first in the morning and those baristas will upsell you better.




I like it. Not her upselling skills but the tea.

Take a look at this 3 newcomers – Green tea latte, Rooibos tea latte and Black tea latte.

Picture taken from Starbucks online

Promoting Starbucks to you guys you ask? Not even. I am a food and a drink lover, people that who are close to me knows that. So this is worth a try.
Question - do you believe in how one can easily change their taste?