Hello world! I am jobless now so that is why I am blogging. Don't ask if I am actively looking for one. Dear dumb blog, do you miss me? I do. Really. Just that I am too bitchy to connect with you for these few months.

So for the past few months, yes I've met someone. And that someone is cemerlang and I feel so lengkap with him. But I intend to take a break from this relationshit I've invested in mentally, physically, spiritually and religiously. Oh don't worry bout the religious part lah people, its not like a cult but it is an insult to my religion seriously. Anyways I realized that I do actually take the effort blog when I am not at my best. Why you ask now that I met that godlike person - I want to end the relationshit? Because I am jobless now and I figured I need to satisfied myself personally that is to get a job first before I can really do this whole relationshit thing. Okie so you ask why can't I look for jobs and stay sane and happy with him right? Deep down, I can't, at my age now, I want a career, not a job - so it is rather cibai important for me to get down to it.

Enough about this. Let me take my Xanax first. Yeah, back to god damn drug again. Relax people, I got this pill legally from my Doctor - you see I was hospitalized last week due to stress, anxiety or also known as panic disorder. It could be because I panic because Im jobless, I hated my current job so much and because I got other things to balance out too. Too much for a pendek big eater babe like me.

Why I am happie now:
1. Jobless
2. Manless again
3. Smoke less so i am far from death - which leads to more time to choose my coffin
4. Gain weight for all the good food that i can afford for letting go the rokok money - kos lepas

The pill is intoxicating me in a good way now, I feel sleepy, calm and relaxed. Will write again once I am sober. Love you Xanax. Eh, I mean love you people!